This is not ranting, it’s just wondering…

Coach Susan rather sensibly asked, Wait a minute...How did we get from "my boss, letting me know that I have options with this company. Specifically, if I wanted to talk to him about switching to part time work, you know, so I could get some balance etc. etc., well. We’d work something out. If I wanted to talk about it, he was listening. If not, forget he ever called. It’s just a thought, just so you know, in case." to "He made it clear that he doesn’t believe I could possibly work around a (pre)school schedule reliably enough to suit them."?

Frankly…I’m a little baffled, too. I’m wondering if, between his call Monday and our chat on Wednesday, he regretted having made the offer and decided to change the rules in a way that he knew would make me say, “Never mind! I’ll just be going now…”

It’s one of many ‘what the @*^&@’ theories rattling around in my head.

Maybe I misread his call entirely and it was really supposed to be one of those ‘veiled threat’ things I hear so much about. I’m saying this as if I mean to help you, but what I mean is, Shape up or ship out!

Maybe he really does think that the three to four full day schedule is exactly what the doctor ordered. He’s not a jerk, he really truly isn’t, but he can be rather…intense. His idea of a “light” work week is anything less than sixty hours, so it may well be that the idea of a twenty hour or less workweek is…well, that’s…I mean…Your earth ways are strange to me…explain this, how you say, ‘part time’…

There is also a personality type to consider. I operate very well with a ‘flexible’ (meaning, it may be midnight before I get back to whatever it was I wanted to be doing) schedule, and it doesn’t bother me when others do the same. I developed this ability over the course of having many home-based businesses through the years. I’ve learned to trust in my own ability to get things done.

But I can readily understand why another person faced with an employee doing the ‘eh, I’ll get it done, don’t you worry’ thing might feel…a little less than convinced.

There are also about half a dozen interns starting in the coming weeks – possibly between Monday and Wednesday it was realized just how many bodies were coming on board and parties of the first part asked parties of the second part why they should continue paying someone who commands a pretty good rate when they have two, three interns ready to pay us to do the same thing?

I don’t know. I really don’t know. I was very, very surprised. Caught utterly flat-footed, in fact. Actually rendered speechless, which those of you who know me “in person” can attest, is a very rare occurrence.

And one which I know a lot of you wish would happen far more often. {kiss-kiss, darlings, love you too!}